Jagged Little Pill

I'm sitting here listening to 'Jagged Little Pill' - gloriously revelling in the intense feeling of nostalgia.

Jagged Little Pill was one of the first three albums I ever bought - together with the Lion King and the Batman Forever soundtracks.

Alanis's music is deeply engrained into me - everyday for perhaps 2 months my sisters and I played Jagged Little Pill in the car on the way to and from school.  It is the sound of me growing up - the sound perhaps of angry feminism taking root into my growing consciousness of the outside world.  Later, I found validation in her Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie album, constant replays reminded me that I was not a freak for feeling the emotions I was experiencing or thinking the thoughts I was thinking.

It's strange now to listen to Jagged LItte Pill and remember how I looked up to Alanis, but know now that she was doing this all when she was younger than I am now.

Anyway, I was sitting here thinking what I would think when I was 11 and I saw myself now and what I was doing.  I think perhaps I'd be slightly disappointed that I hadn't taken over the world by now. :) But also I think I would be happy, and proud, that I'm attempting to fight the good fight.  I would be surprised that my undergraduate was in computer science when I had always been more drawn to the arts, but I think that I would think it cool that I have these skills.  I'd think my karate medals and achievements were awesome, although question why I am not still doing it.

I'd be amazed that I'm living and working in London, and be appalled at the size of my current room.  And not too surprised but possibly a bit disappointed that I'm single. :) I'd like that I can play the guitar and bought Amity at the age of 17, but also wonder why I'm not better at it.

What an interesting exercise.