A temporary lapse of judgement

"You must think I'm crazy, I'm still in love with you"

Stuff to say about what has happened recently, but this is not the post.

Just wanted to say that I 'facestalked' the ex and the almost ex on facebook and was relieved/saddened to see that there was no more attraction. The ex I don't even feel I know anymore... I almost feel like I never knew him. Which is sad. The almost ex I always knew was utterly and completely toxic for me.... which is why he is an 'almost ex'. All the same I was undeniably and utterly attracted to him. Now I am relieved... and saddened... to see that now I can see through him the way everybody else somehow could while I knew I should but couldn't. Or I did and ignored it. In that case, I have stopped ignoring it. But I don't want to see him that way... but I also don't want to be attracted to him.