Trade-offs

I got a text message about half an hour ago telling me that the person who send the text message just got a text message from a friend of ours about the death of someone we all knew from karate.  When I read the name at the bottom of the message, I was selfishly thankful, that it wasn't someone from our own team, and someone I cared about a lot more.

It's unfair for me to think so, but I'm still glad, and I feel guilty, because of course he was just as loved, and a great great loss to the karate world, but just not to me.

All the same, I'm sorry you're gone.  R.I.P.