ok, ok, thoughts

And the thoughts are...

Well since the ISKL reunion I've been thinking about ISKL days a lot lately. Almost being immersed in random memories I forgot were even there. Like this morning on the train I remembered that time that Eamon and I ended up alone in Kelly's house for some reason.

And speaking about Eamon (hello, I know you'll probably read this at some point, at which feel free to discuss if you want or ignore at will), it's all been wrapped up in how lately 2 of my friends have told me to go steal someone's boyfriend (er, long story. But I don't want to steal him, really). Which of course makes me think about first year and how my friend's girlfriend still hates my guts because she thought I was trying to steal him, even though I'm not the type of person to steal boyfriends! But then whenever I think/say that, I remember a very very guilty little thought that, actually, in a very stupid little way, I might once have. But we were young (13) and they hadn't been together long anyway and it didn't mean anything, right?

And then that gets me to thinking about what would've happened if I hadn't done it. If I'd just let things go, shrugged my shoulders and told myself it wasn't important in the grand scheme of things, left, and never looked back. And I think how different our lives might've turned out, if, because of that, we never kept in touch, and that scares me quite a lot. But then I remember how close we were back then and I think (hope) we would've kept in touch anyway.

And what I said about TCKs earlier - that might've been an untruth. I was possibly on a TCK kick after meeting kung fu girl, but after the ISKL reunion I have been dissapointed. It's interesting how people who ignored you at school still ignore you years later - not actively but because you just weren't very important to them. I'm contrasting this to other people at the reunion who I'd never met but were still quite open and willing to talk to me, which is cool. But I'm just a little surprised that there are those other types of people, too, who have grown up as TCKs yet don't seem to have benefitted from it.

That's all really.