Well I've just finished cleaning the kitchen and the bathroom.... I need to tidy up my bedroom and then hoover hoover hoover.... but before that I'll bake some scones.

I sound quite domesticated don't I. :)

I like having time outside of studying, where I'm not feeling guilty for not studying, to do stuff. Yesterday I was in the Meadows having a waterfight. We then retired to the pub for a few drinks and dinner, then to the teahouse for hot chocolate (me), tequila, and tea, chess, checkers, and card games.

I could get used to this.

Meanwhile I'm learning cantonese (as I clean) and economics (though, it must be said, only half-heartedly so far) and dreaming of a person I could be.

Someone once said to me that he had become the person he had wanted to be, but now he was realising that he no longer wants to be that person. He had created new goals, he wanted to be someone else yet again.

I want to be someone, not someone different, but someone better. I want to know about world affairs and not merely sit at the feet of those who do. I want to be able to argue, to put my point across in a way that will make people acknowledge that I might be right. I want to be accomplished, to have talents both useful and to make people look at me twice. They need not be the same talents.

Don't get me wrong. I don't dislike the person I am. I think for where I am in life I am good enough. But I aware that I will soon be moving out into the big bad world and I want tools to keep in a utility belt and brandish around when needed. I want to be someone that I can admire.

I don't think my goals are too much to ask of myself. And I don't think when I reach there I will want to be someone else, maybe I will have bigger goals, to become even better, but I don't think I would want to be someone else entirely.

Anyway. I'm going to bake some blueberry scones.