-_-

Stayed in bed until 3 today.... couldn't be bothered to get up.

Have been in a melancholy mood lately... combination of being ill and under pressure to find a job. My mind keeps on bouncing around when I think to myself "what should I do when I graduate?" On the one hand I would like to have lots and lots of money. On the other hand I've met too many amazing people this summer who make do without and have amazing lives.

Earlier in the semester I felt that the Universe had decided to gently nudge me in the direction of Graphics.... what with a series of random encounters with people and coincidences. But damn, this stuff is hard to get into! The sheer amount of competition from everyone else wanting to do graphics is just too giant... let alone all the companies who are offering jobs... but only for experienced types.

Then there's the money issue.... no doubt I'll be paid well working with graphics, but we're not talking about the same amount of money that other places I'm looking at are offering.

I'm talking houses with wide open areas of land for kids to run around in, I'm talking trips to places I've always wanted to see, no financial worries, etc. etc. etc....

Then there's the TCK in me wanting the travel. I love Edinburgh, but I've been here too long. I need somewhere new, somewhere exciting. I miss Asia.... so much.

I want to close my mind to all these things and just concentrate on getting through the year and doing well, but I have to find a job... or at least try. And everytime I go to Accenture and click on the "fill in application form" something in me screams "business suit!" and I close the window with a sigh. It's not what I want. It's close... yes, but I don't want the professional world.