Man it is cold today. Intense fog, massive coldness. At least it wasn't dry cold, otherwise my lungs might've died.

Yes, I'm getting this horrible cold that is being passed around. Of course most people got it last month but I was trying to fight it with vegetable soup and lots of fruit. Then I ran out of vegetable soup and got kinda lax about the fruit.

I did try to rescue myself by drinking lots of smoothies though. But that kinda just left a hole in my wallet.

Let's see what have I been up to....

Got bit on the shoulder today by the ugly green envy monster! I was all like "Hey that's my pretty-cute-intellectually-stimulating-not-attracted-to-at-all-flirt-friend! Stop taking his attention away from me!" then I stopped, thought about it for a second, turned around and said "Don't be silly little ugly green envy monster, I don't want to, and will never want to go out with ********, there is so nothing going on between us, I'd be pretty awkward about it if there was, and look, he's happy!" So I went off to write an essay.

After applying to numerous (ok, 3) places for my summer internship I have been invited to the assessment centre of *big investment bank*! I'm all aflutter about it, not sure what 'casual clothes' means (we're taking a test and they're taking us out to dinner the day before the assessment centre), what I should do with my hair, what's going to happen! Quite excited about being put up at a hotel in London though.

By the way, look at my calendar for next month...


The blue numbers are the days I either have something on, or something is due, or both. Look, I have a whole week free after BUSA to recover! Probably in the hospital having surgery on my ankle, huh.

OK going to sleep now!

Which File Extension are You?

Sitting here wondering why why why?

Why did I twist my ankle at such an inappropriate time? Why did I go
back to training on Wednesday evening? Why am I so stupid! I
could've waited a couple more days and it could've been good. Or I
could've sat down and quit the session once it started hurting.

Anyway, sitting in the lab contemplating a boring Friday evening
devoid of ass-kicking or social activity with my foot propped up on
the chair next to me.

I guess now is a good time to catch up on work.

Bah.

Never have been so circumstantially cranky before.

The girls are coming over on Sunday for pancake morning so that's
something to look forward to I guess.

Getting a bit tired of Dashboard Confessional - very emo. I tried to
do an emo pose today while Ronan and I were playing around with my
camera but Ronan didn't take a picture. Pictures to go up, maybe,
possibly, if I can be bothered when I go home.

anyway. gonna do some work.

Just had a warm haggis roll - it was pretty good.  Mmm.

I'm tired of staying off my ankle and nothing seeming to get better so I'm going back to training tonight.  yay!

The bitch in the water

That's me! le Bitch.

I went swimming today (alternative exercise to over-use of my ankle) and realised what an absolute bitch I am in the water!

I swim in the fast lane (but of course) and then people get in who can barely swim let alone swim in the fast lane. Like, read the signs, yo!

So I end up behind them and I'm swimming slow slow breaststroke while they struggle valiantly with the freestyle and then! we get to the end of the lane and what do they do? The look at me, turn around, and go right back up again. I decide I'm having no more of this and overtake them, making sure to splash lots their way. mwa ha ha ha ha.

Yes, that's me trying to bully people out of the lane. And I'm not very proud of myself for it. But then again, I also think, why do they persist? WHY? They should head into the medium lane or something. Please.

Walking After You

A couple of days ago I found a cd of mp3s I burned before coming to uni. Walking After You by the Foo Fighters is on it, and it's just come on my mp3 player.

I just watched the X-files movie a few weeks ago when it was on TV and it is just totally the Mulder and Scully relationship when Scully says "I'm leaving, Mulder! I'm only holding you back!" and Mulder goes "nooooooooooooooooooo!"

Walking After You
Foo Fighters

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just won't do without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

If you'd accept surrender, I'll give up some more
Weren't you adored
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back

I cannot be without you, matter of fact
I'm on your back, I'm on your back, I'm on your back

If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you
If you walk out on me, I'm walking after you

Another heart is cracked in two, I'm on your back

Ah hah

Sitting here Monday morning listening to Jewel.

I've had an interesting weekend.

Went to try and see Brokeback Mountain with the girls last night but it was sold out so we ended up at the City Cafe near The Tron having a drink and, in my case, a burger and wedges! (My diet is not going well.)

I just realised that the SU Ball is only a week away and I have a pretty big belly and pretty much no way to get rid of it since I've been ordered off my ankles by my captain and swimming only opens at silly time in the morning before my 9am lectures or early in the evening before I've got time to carb up, and there is no way I am going to starve myself!

This ball is going to be good fun though!

Saw Ian on Saturday, hung out for a while, it was cool. Awkward and comfortable at the same time. More awkwardly comfortable than comfortably awkward, although it was that too. He indulged in his mocchas and I indulged in my non-caffienated teas, we avoided certain topics of conversation, and I achieved a bit of inner quietness.

I miss American rock.

now listening to "Push" by Matchbox 20.

Apparently over winter break I gained several kilograms... enough to put me over the weight category that I am entered in for BUSA (The British Universities tournament) so I have had to lose weight, and am fixated with food! Especially snack food. But it's not all bad, because it's only "healthy" snack food, like Panda Licorice or Geobars.

My weight 'problem' was not helped by twisting my ankle on Friday evening during training, luckily it was at the end of training so I benefited at least from that night!

Watching training on Saturday morning I was speaking to another girl who'd also twisted her ankle (hers was worse than mine) she mentioned I could try swimming and I brightened up immediately... why didn't I think about that!

So I woke up at 7:30 on Sunday morning to hit the pool at 9... unfortunately the pool didn't open until 10, but I went then! Had a good 40 minutes swim (a bit more than 1k) and was surprised by how not unfit I was, I was expecting to be much worse, then met Lana for 'brunch' (a sneaky full english breakfast, but with nothing fried, it was grilled sausages and bacon and scrambled egg) and walked around the city. It was a good day!

Anyway I have complemented all this with a mile speedwalk to uni every morning around 8:55am, half of which is steep uphill (with an ankle support!) so I'm not doing too badly... and today on the scale after eating dinner I was 52kg! And I haven't even started really training.

Yay for healthiness.

In other news I have run into Player Boy 6 times since Uni started 8 days ago. Which would be fine apart from he ignores me unless I acknowledge him first! I mean he's a really nice guy apart from that and really quite easy to talk to especially considering circumstances, and if we had kept on being friends I might've reconsidered, but at the way things are going now I really don't think so.

I've not done much work as yet, but I have a rather large project to do with 9 other people and for my other courses I haven't been assigned any coursework yet but I do need to learn C and read some material, so I've got stuff to do.

I could also study my last semester's courses for exams but I so don't want to! I think I need to get back into working mode after too much time lying on the couch watching TV and gaining weight!

I was slightly melancholy yesterday from being quite tired (I guess the swimming really took it out of me) and it being rainy and gloomy, so I picked up some Adrian Mole from the bookshop (£2.99 for two books in one) and am reading it... it is rather funny and readable. I wish I could pick up some Turing or Hennessey for 'light reading' like other people do but I guess my 'common' brain just can't deal.

I have lots to do next month so I should probably get as much work as possible out of the way this month... next month the big events are:

1) Mom's birthday (am going home)
2) BUSA (weekend of karate!)
3) Sports Union ball (dress up fine and have dinner!)
4) Martial Arts ball (dress up and ceilidh! Have been really good the past two years but this is the first year I'm not going with Ian, which is going to be strange)
5) Nick Cave (live at the Festival!)

so that is a lot to do! I will survive. :P

Anyway going to bed even though it is only 22:14 I am stonked.